Vulnerability

I have yet to meet someone who is quick to be vulnerable. But when you've been in the presence of someone who shares the honest to goodness truth about themselves, you know you've been invited into a sacred space.

Some people say I'm brave to admit my weaknesses, especially on the world wide web. Sharing so honestly is not something that comes naturally to me. Life experiences have left me feeling guarded, and sometimes (most days, really) I'd rather stay muted. Initially, it can be far more comfortable to hide from your raw, true feelings and offer simple platitudes, but from my own experience, that only leaves you feeling lonely.

It's not easy to step over the edge and commit to being vulnerable. I have only been able to do this when I have been brought to the end of myself and know without a doubt that I am secure in God's love and grace - no matter what. And sometimes, it takes being vulnerable to be reminded of that truth.

I am grateful for two women who I meet with on a fairly regular basis. We lay it out. We move past the feelings of discomfort and fear. We expose ourselves - the parts we like and the parts we wish could remain hidden. The conversation isn't hurried, and these dear ladies are patient with me - giving me the space and time to move past saying "I'm fine" to revealing the truth about myself.

They listen compassionately and they always point me back to the truth and remind me who I am in Christ. I'm an introvert, but I'm learning that God has designed us for relationship. Those nights that I feel tired or hurt - those are the nights I need that community the most.

And there in that living room, we discover something so incredibly powerful - we belong.